Note;

Hey, guys, I have been going through some rough times in my head, and it all has to do with staying home, alone for basically more than a year. Having nobody to talk to, nobody to vent on is very unhealthy for me because I am an emotionally unstable person, and without that one person, thoughts will build up and I will blow steam off at the person I love the most. And that has been happening for the past week.

And I really regret it, because sooner or later, it will effect us both too deep to even repair. I figured out I really need to do something during the day to get my thoughts out into the open, meet some people (despite my paranoia of humans), and put my spare day time into something more productive instead of just venting off to myself, which, like I said, isn't healthy at all.

I figured I am gong to apply for a couple of jobs, I suppose. I don't know how well I will do since I lack a diploma or a GED (yet), but there aren't a lot of people my age around this area so I don't think everyone is applying for the same job. There are only so few places a couple miles down the road that I can easily ride my bike too (perhaps my legs will die the first couple of times, but it's all worth it), but if I can't get them, I don't know what I'll do.

I'll be in the same spot I was in before.
Though, I hope not, at least. Staying home is making me go insane, little by little. If I do not find something to occupy my mind with, I am going to ask my mother to place me in a hospital until my thoughts and feelings are sorted out evenly and I am watched carefully so I will not do any harm to anyone or myself. (I am not the kind of person that would do self-harm, but it's hard to control yourself when you're fucked up)

Knowing her, she'll probably decline my request because she'll believe I'm just being silly. Which, I could be, but eh...

Anyways, the point of this journal is that I'm going to be opening commissions, to keep myself busy throughout the day so I won't have to think so damn much. And I REALLY hope you guys don't comment on this journal saying, "Oh I wish I could but I have no money!" because that is probably the most annoying thing you can say. o_o

And guess what, these will probably be the cheapest damn things you'll see. It's up to you if you want to pay me more, I'd probably work harder on it for all I know; but everything of quality in my gallery is under $10.
Actually, it's all under $5.
And I use paypal. If you do not use paypal, send a cheque. Doesn't matter.
Just note me if you are interested, at least.
I'll draw anything.
It'll be a nice challenge.


On a side note, if you don't hear from me in a couple days, there is the possibility of many things that could of have happened. Use your imagination, but you probably wouldn't hear from me for a while, or at all from that point. (No, I'm not going to kill myself, shut up)

Also, if you comment on this journal saying, "I'm here for you, you can talk about anything, I'll listen!"; I'm just going to ignore that because the truth is... you're not. And you won't start for someone like me, so. I have very few friends as of right now that would even care, but they have their own lives to occupy and I won't bother venting on them.

I'm sorry for the angsty journal, but I just wanted you guys to know.
Anyways, yeah.
Commissions anyone?

Cya.